Hey I haven’t been here in awhile. Good to be back. This is kind of deep please bare with me. I’ve had depression and suicidal thoughts especially the last few months. Got worse when I broke out into a full blown rash on my face and eyes today. Not hives just red skin. I’m worried that I may very well have to quit possibly forever. On top of all the shit in my life now I have to give up the thing that has helped me not end myself. Seriously I’m sorry but I’ve had a lot of issues in my life. Kava has been a treasure in my life I don’t know what I’ll do. I’ve gotten dermopathy before and managed it well but not this bad. Possibly because I skipped a few breaks. Been drinking 25 consecutive days now I think or somewhere around that mark. I’ve tried so many other things to help and nothing has helped me like kava has.