because this happened to coincide with me having to watch another one of my childhood best friends die of liver failure, coincidentally all around the same time of year that my best friend died 8 years ago. So it's already a difficult time for me, which has now been amplified. The resulting grief, anxiety and depression requires some relief though, and without kava, I've had to resort to consuming the same cheap, widely accepted, widely available, liquid poison that just took my friend's life. Seems counterintuitive doesn't it.
