After 8 years of not sleeping due to a severe head injury (cracked half the bones in my skull - car t-bones bike, I'm on the bike), it was finally benzos that saved me. Though I've managed to up my doses rather than reduce...trying to get back to that minimal figure (25mg diazapam/night). Added phenibut and etizolam (big mistake, though the phenibut does allow me, for the first time in many years, to sleep through the night). I just don't want to take ANY of this stuff during the day...and my head sort of screams for it...all is awry, unless I take a couple grams of phenibut.
I REALLY wouldn't recommend ever combining the two (benzo's and phenibut), as it seems this makes me NEED to sleep after a meal with any carbs whatsoever. At night, this is fine, and at a minimal dosage, ie. just for sleep, it's no big deal, but they must share some elimination system which contributes to knocking me out.
Right now, doing what I can on Kava only, with the diazapam only at night. It's only day 2, but I can see the possibilities (actually fast-tapering doses of Phen and Etizolam to a minimum - apparently these are both easier to come off of than 'standard' benzos). Not sure what Kava strain I'm taking (whole powdered root from Vanuatu), though I know I need something longer acting than what I have (getting up and making tea every 1/2 hour at this point!). But as long as I feel the Kava buzz, I don't feel the need to dose on something else. Now scared of phenibut and etizolam, and decided not to order gabapentin (haven't heard of Gabitril!) and use Kava to 'go for it'.
Woke up with a Kava hangover this morning - wasn't the worst thing in the world - I just wanted to stay comfortably in bed (usually not the case - thank god it's Saturday). First coffee in days was probably not the thing to have...didn't feel it right away, and now it's indistinguishable from just plain anxiety from reduced dosages.
Yes, feeling like there's work to be done, and times I'm just going to have to feel like, well, you know...things are messy - even though my 'calculating' mind knows they're not. And I think I've found a great friend in Kava root powder (can't stand the feeling of the gelcaps - spendy, and it's the only time I've been sick). Motivates me to work!
Anyway, to those reading regarding Kava and benzo w/d, I think Kava can attenuate much of the symptoms - and from my research, because it doesn't seem to have any w/d's when stopped, it's a WAY better choice...can help during the taper, and after with PAWS. Lots of water (or coconut water - I get CocoHydro) and b-vits.
Thanks for reading...I really appreciate a group who gets what this is all about - so I can somehow, somewhere, share what's going on. Cheers!