Im right there with you. When I was was 16 I spent 2 years studying the original texts of the Bible in the original languages of Hebrew, Aramaic, And Greek, word for word, there meanings, and context. I learned too much. That is why I am here today, and not in church. It ruined me lol. Since realizing the truth about religion, I have studied many spiritual paths, and keep coming back to indigenous shamanic practices, and a basic understanding of natural spirituality. My desire to learn took me down the path of using many different substances as tools, but has since led me away from almost all drugs, natural or man made. I also live for this shit, and drive myself crazy with researching everything and anything every chance I get. I am an ardent spiritual student, and will be til the day I die. Its a burning passion that I cannot extinguish.