@Edward Thank you, but I made 4 attempts already.
@Orz[EST] I bike and garden, which helps. I also do a little bit of mindfulness meditation, which is similar to CBT. There are some activities I can't afford because I lost my job and my income is limited. I don't know Shizandra but I'll find out. However, I tried kanna years ago and it increased my heart rate too much. Also, I was prescribed an SSRI in the beginning, and it was hell...so I absolutely avoid substances that act too much on serotonin, like kanna does. Thanks for your suggestions.
@Michael Nielsen I have never tried Nene. But I read a lot of reviews that said it was one of the smoothest kavas to drink and good for sleep. That's why I wanted to try. But so far I have had disastrous effects on my gastric system with any kava from Vanuatu for example. However, the last kava I tried at Mark's was not very good for my reflux (though it was a Fijian, but an "old" root, maybe that's the reason?). And yes, I want to order from the EU because for 1 year and the new European law, there are more checks for systematic taxes (and therefore more seizures). Kava is not classified as narcotic in my country, but on a list of plants which are not marketable, because "the expected therapeutic effects are inferior to the potential side effects"...